About a week ago I tweeted, “Contentment provides a tickling feeling”. This is a small phrase that has spoken loudly to me over the past few weeks. It was around this exact time in 2013 that I began to anxiously await and question what was going to happen with my life. I knew I was going to be graduating college in May and for me that meant immediately getting into focus mode and figuring out what the rest of my life has in store for me. I was working on finding a job, finishing strong in school, where I was going to live and how all of the relationships in my life were going to be affected based on the decisions I made.
Graduation has come and gone, and if you were to ask me a year ago if this is where I thought I would be the answer would be no – but of course that is the case. All too often we all say we are in control, but it’s all God’s work. So I am here – a small town, a gorgeous home, a great job, the ability to live in comfort and close enough to all of the people who are important to me.
I started my job at the end of May and have remained rather focused on mastering my position and industry. As each day goes by, I not only become more comfortable and knowledgeable in my position, but more comfortable and knowledgeable with my own life outside of work. I hear it is pretty common for “20 somethings” to question what they are doing and why they are doing it – so if that is a hot commodity, then I can totally relate. It has happened, should I have explored more options, looked at more positions in bigger cities – the list goes on and on. And while I have internally been fighting this battle I think I have found a light – contentment.
I am a very driven person, in more ways than one, and throughout my entire life contentment was never a word used often in my vocabulary. However, I found such a joy in this word and it’s meaning. ![Contentment](https://curlyblondeblog.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/10/contentment.jpg?w=584)
Usually, I am always jumping around from one idea to the next, a total scatter brain when it comes to ideas, motivations and just life in general. Yet, through the transition into adulthood satisfaction and ease of mind is exactly what I have found. Through all life uncertainties, questionable situations and straight up uncomfortable moments, God has led me to a state of contentment, and one that feels so good.
No longer am I measuring my life in the amount of goods I can accumulate, the pictures I can re-create or the amount of ridiculously perfect memories I can engrave in my mind, but by the feeling of pure joy. Whether it be from God, my family, my boyfriend, my best friends, my job, my home, my workouts and more, this comforting state of contentment truly tickles me inside.
Remaining focused and driven is important to me and pushes me to reach my goals, but along the way feeling loved in all and every situation provides an ease of mind and that tickling feeling of enjoyment. God has given me a great life and has provided me the comfort to enjoy it.
These people also provide a great deal of happiness in my life.![Group](https://curlyblondeblog.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/10/group1.jpg?w=584&h=259)